2.01.2008

Man, am I tired...

I should post more when I am in a good mood, because I swear they do happen. But I think I only take the time to sit still when I am feeling tired or angry, so that is what comes out on my blog. My deepest regrets...

I just got back from our "Advanced Training Retreat" or ATR, as they say in the biz. It was three full days up in the north country with the corps. Lots of fun was had, but mostly I'm just drained. The lake was very pretty though.


At the retreat, we did an exercise called Cross the Line. Basically a facilitator says statements, and if these statement apply to you then you, well, cross the line. I hear the statements can get very intense, but I didn't think it got too bad. The thing I like about these exercises is that they create a space of honesty and vulnerability that we all enter together. I have a hard time being open, especially in this group, but when everybody is asked to be open together it works for me. I wish we could all be more naturally open; I realize how much I crave that kind of connection with other people. I think that is why this year has been hard. I don't have that...permission...to be open with anyone around here; I've only known them for a couple of months.

Anyway, next time I post, I'll try to do it in one of my good moods.

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